I love books and inanimate objects the most. They don't talk, yell, cry, or need any food. Movies too because I can turn them off. I don't need people and I don't need things but sometimes they are nice to have around.
I'll probably post a bunch of pictures of books, games, magazine scans, randoms things that I collect and random diarrhea spewed from my mind. If you don't like any of that, then fuck right off.
I don't do this internet shit for anyone but myself.
I may say insensitive things sometimes but I don't care but at the same time I won't cut into anyone, judge them, like I see on tumblr.
I may be an asshole sometimes but I don't understand internet hate, so don't worry I won't be rude to you unless you are invading my personal space.
A collection of collections and rants.
I tell my dad that I am moving out and he yells at me and tells me “whatever I’m moving out too” and continues to yell at me and tell me about all of the bills we can’t afford. I ask him, “will me moving out, help, in the sense that I won’t be here to make the electricity bill so high?” He says no but then continues to tell me that the consumers bill was 3 hundred dollars more expensive last month.
Well what is it? I cost money but me leaving won’t save you money? that makes no sense at all and makes me really confused. I am trying to do what I can to make the other people I live with lives easier. I have somewhere I can move, tomorrow…I don’t want to, this is my home.
I say I am going to move out and my mother says, ” what about the house? me and your father are moving out too…I thought you were going to live here after we move out?”, then she continues to tell me about all the bills we can’t afford and my dad tells me that I won’t be able to pay the bills, how will I keep the heat on? and my mom tells me she don’t want to live in Flint anymore and all the reasons they want to move out…
All week I have not felt good, I have felt inadequate and like I only cause people trouble, I have laid on the cold cement basement floor and thought about the rope that’s in the other room, thought about how easy it would be to hang myself with it…I feel so confused, worthless and like everything that I hold dear, the personal things that I believe in, my thoughts, my dreams and my ideas, I’ve felt like they don’t matter and neither do I. I’m so confused…I want to live but all I do is cause people trouble, unless I just sit in my room and don’t talk to anybody.
Worst thing is I have no one to talk to, nobody here will talk to me, everyone is so quick to tell me what’s wrong with me and that they’ve tried to help me (which they haven’t) and it’s all my fault. I am sorry that I have a temper and that I have panic attacks but that’s all my fault, as you’ve told me, repeatedly, and I need to be locked in a room and on pills because nobody cares enough to ask me what’s wrong or how I feel today.
But I am the one who is wrong for feeling this way…I am wrong for feeling guilt, everyday, that I am worthless and can’t get a job…everything is going to shit around me and I can’t help anything. I thought that I was past feeling this way but I’m not and I don’t want to live like this.
11:30 pm • 28 January 2014
Curse you fingernails for growing too damn fast! I’m an ambidextrous guitar player so both my hand’s fingernails are growing like crazy, it’s annoying. If you play guitar, you know that your nails have to be short…If not to make it easier to play but also to not scratch the shit out of your fretboard.
On the plus side, since I stopped biting my fingernails, like 10-12 years, my nails grow back pretty straight, with the exception of the index finger and thumb of my left-hand(my natural picking hand) which grow slightly crooked from years of holding guitar picks.
2:51 am • 27 January 2014 • 1 note
I can’t believe people try to say The Simpsons aren’t good anymore. I believe a lot of people are too hung up on nostalgia…The old writing was great and so is the new writing. Sure, there may have been a hit or miss episode but that’s inevitable. My friend(who’s almost 30 years old and a bigger fan than me) and I watched some episodes from the season this pic set is from and, to us, it felt like coming home.
2:40 am • 27 January 2014 • 612 notes
Someone should have told Anakin from the get go “act like a bitch, you gon’ get treated like a bitch”. I mean for fucks sake, every time Windu was in the same room as Anakin he said something like, “I don’t trust that motherfucker”. At least that’s what I hear and that’s what that look on his face says and does say I don’t trust him, like 20 times. I mean Anakin never listened to one thing anyone ever told him. Nothing but fear, jealousy, anger, resentment, hate in him. Granted he did leave is mother to be a Jedi and he lost her and then he felt like the council was shutting him out…so in a way he held some resentment. But he still was a piece of shit, little whiny bitch, who didn’t listen to fucking anything anyone told him. You’re not ready to be a jedi master because you are a little bitch. You haven’t minded your patience, your temper…nothing but selfishness from him. I want this, I want that, why? because I deserve it. wah wah wah. Someone should of punted his bull-cut hair cut wearing ass into a sarlac pit at the beginning of Episode 1…hold your fucking horses before you say some shit about there being no movie after that, I fucking realize that shit, like duh, I see you’re strong in pointing out the obvious…move along. I’m just saying all these motherfucking jedi masters and they couldn’t see this dudes the antichrist.
I get the movie though, everything is there for a reason, it’s all part of the story…a bitch is still a bitch.
11:25 pm • 24 January 2014
There’s always this one small Ewok hanging out with R2-D2 in Return of the Jedi. It’s hilarious for some reason because they are about the same height.
A lot of people talk shit about the Ewoks and that sort of proves a point: that some humans aren’t compassionate towards non-human life forms, almost by nature. Some people, including myself, love all ‘animals’ from dogs to cats, to amphibian to sea mammals, but some people feel superior to all those creatures and more. It’s pretty common these days to see the Ewoks spoken of as sort of mockery, worst thing since Jar Jar Binks, type of talk.
I think George Lucas put a lot of positive messages in his movies, intentionally, as well as good lessons. I mean the whole series is a big metaphor, in ways.
Throughout both trilogies you can see humanoids, robots and other life forms working together because they have a central purpose. That’s a message right there; without prejudice we could achieve anything and even stop corruption. Even though in the original trilogy the Force is almost extinct it is still strong. All of the people that work together for a the good cause, strengthen the Force by aligning with the “good”. The Dark Side, which is an anger, greed, thirst for power driven, ego trip. It can relate to real life ,perfectly, in a sense that if you portray the traits of someone following the Dark Side, you would find someone unhappy, unfulfilled, always needing more and always making war. People like that exist in real life.
Towards the end of Return of the Jedi after Luke helps take Vader’s mask off, when luke says to him he’s taking Vader with him because he wants to save him and Vader replies, “You already have saved me”. By showing Vader that he still had compassion, that he indeed was still Anakin Skywalker, Luke saved him. He made Vader realize that the only way he would ever be free, was to die. He made him realize that the Dark Side was a trap all along. It made you a slave, just as it will make you a slave in real life.
As for the magical aspect of the force, look up quantum entanglement, it is how plants take sunlight and turn it into food. Up until recently it wasn’t provable but scientists believed it to be true. Recently they have been able to prove that quantum entanglement exists and plants use it to tap into the energy from the sun’s radiation, which we sense in the form of heat (duh) but we can’t tap into it and create potential energy beyond solar panels. The Force powers could be based around quantum entanglement. The idea of quantum entanglement would have been around at the time, if not the same name but the theory/idea. George and his writers could have been taking cues from that school of thought.
Beyond all that good science fiction should mix social commentary with ideas of the future blended together into something entertaining, and that Star Wars does and does well. If a movie can take you away, make you feel like your in another world but you can still come out of that with a clear message of good and evil…well to me, that is great cinema. A lot of movies don’t have any purpose in the world, they are pointless and don’t serve the betterment of society. Speaking from my own point of view, Star Wars can benefit us if we see the good messages/lessons that are there.
I’ll end this with a quote from Yoda:
"war has never made one great", said Yoda after Luke said he was looking for the great warrior, Yoda.
1:54 am • 24 January 2014 • 1 note
search your feelings, you know it to be true.
10:19 pm • 23 January 2014
i hate mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays, thursdays, and half of fridays.
do you hate day’s or do you just hate your own existence? Days only exist in your mind, so your only hating yourself. respect yourself.
8:50 pm • 23 January 2014 • 40,617 notes
Yesterday’s story of the elderly NYC man who was beaten bloody by police for jaywalking today gets a tragic companion from Philadelphia:
A 16-yr-old African American boy was sexually assaulted by a police officer during a “stop and frisk” pat-down. The assault was committed with such violence that the youth’s testicles were literally ruptured.
Now, Darrin Manning of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania may never be able to father children, according to the doctors who performed surgery on his virtually destroyed testicles.
Darrin was a star basketball player with no criminal history to speak of. He was a straight-A student who never got into any sort of trouble. He was with his teammates heading to a game right after school when he encountered an officer who decided he was “suspicious” and needed to be subjected to local “stop and frisk” procedures.
Though no official reason has been given for the stop and frisk, Darrin and the other (uniformed) members of the basketball team who were stopped suggest it was because they were wearing scarves over their faces to protect against the extreme cold Philadelphia, like much of the country, has suffered this winter.
Darrin was put in handcuffs. When the officer began “frisking” him, they grabbed hold of Darrin’s genitals so hard, pulled and twisted, that the teen’s genitals literally tore off.
“I felt the officer reach and grab my butt. Then the officer grabbed my testicles and squeezed again and pulled down. And that’s when I heard something pop, like I felt it POP,” Manning said.
The incident has left the 16-year-old with felony charges of assault and resisting arrest.
"I’m just grateful that they just didn’t kill him," said Darrin’s mother.
WHAT THE FUCK
Reading this further confirms what Francis Cress Welsing says about whites being afraid of genetic annihilation by way of the black mans genitalia on a subconscious level.
What The Fuck! and the kid is being charged with two crimes?!?! I don’t even fucking know what’s going on out there in the world and trust me when I say I don’t say that lightly at all. The officer, his department and the state of Philadelphia need to be sued and tried as criminals. Philadelphia…where the motherfucking liberty bell sits. THE LIBERTY BELL. there is none anymore.
8:47 pm • 23 January 2014 • 99,892 notes
The Brilliant Feynman..
words to live by.
9:09 am • 23 January 2014 • 390 notes